A Small Win

Ok, day 2. I see you. This was not easy. There are a lot of to-do’s still on my list, meal prep, laundry, folding of the laundry, picking up Sami’s room before our playdate this afternoon. But I’m here! I sat down and am making the time to write. Steven Pressfield’s latest book title comes to mind, “Put Your Ass (Where Your Heart Wants To Be).” Holding myself accountable is the hardest part, but I know it’s crucial. No one else will get on me about this so it’s my torch to carry. I’m hoping that in time I’ll establish a following of readers who will hold me accountable as well! But until then, it’s up to me.

I managed to get the kids to bed earlier last night in the hopes that they would feel more rested and able to wake up bright and early this morning and it worked! I was pleasantly surprised to see both Lilly and Sami up and out of bed, playing with our cat, Sonny. Usually, I have to poke and pry Lilly out of bed until we get to the panic phase of rushing and being late for school. But today ended up working out. I still had to keep them on track, help them focus on the checklist of brushing their teeth and getting changed. By the time we got downstairs, disappointingly, we were still running late. I feel a bit defeated in these moments because I just can’t understand how we can live so close to school and still be late. But as we made our way and I turned the corner driving down the street where the pond is visible and sparkly and the trees are lush and vast, instead of feeling angry and frustrated I instead felt grateful and at peace. I could have easily come down on them for not going fast enough, but I put on a great new song I recently added and pointed out the red leaves on the trees as we drove past them. It was a nice moment. And I like to think it set them up to have a better day at school. They were calm, happy. The choices we make are everything. They can make or break. They can put us in the right direction or steer us off course. Today, I’m happy that in that moment, I made a good one.